Iraq invaded Kuwait in the summer of 1990. I was seven months pregnant with my first child. My husband was serving in the Pennsylvania Army National Guard at the time, so news such as that was more than just a front-page headline; it was cause to take notice. As the crisis unfolded, it became apparent that the question was not if my husband Mike would be activated to serve, but rather, when.
MONTHS OF UNCERTAintY
The last months of my pregnancy were overshadowed by the uncertainty looming over us. The rubber was about to meet the road, so to speak. No more “weekend warriors”, as the National Guard were often referred to. This was the real thing. We were advised to get our financial and legal matters in order. I was barely holding it together. Praying that the situation would get resolved quickly; knowing that it was not as simple as that. I turned to God, knowing that I could not do this on my own. I did not have enough strength to get through it.
A TURNING POINT
This was a turning point in my life, and in my faith in God and His provision. I leaned into God like never before, asking Him to give me the strength that I needed. With a great deal of hope and more than a little anxiety, I tried to keep my focus on managing one day at a time. As I did, I began to see God work.
praying with confidence
While other military units were called into service in the early months of the crisis, Mike’s unit was not. He was home for the birth of our son in October and wasn’t called to service until late November. His preparation for deployment took place at Ft. Indiantown Gap, so he came home on the weekends leading up to his departure. What a blessing, to be able to celebrate Christmas together. Shortly after New Year’s Day, as he departed to the Middle East. I prayed with confidence that God would take care of him and all involved.
strength i didn’t know was possible
I knew that God had it all under control and He would carry us through this, regardless of how it turned out. Never before had I experienced God’s faithfulness and care for me evidenced in so many different ways. I developed a strength I didn’t believe was possible. God gifted me with visits, phone calls and offers of help from family, friends and neighbors. When admitted to the hospital for gall bladder surgery in April, I wondered how God could take care of my baby and me. What a blessing occurred – my mom was able to move in and take care of me and my son. Through the times of loneliness and fear, I felt deeply loved and cared for.
his faithfulness is a shield
In the book of 2 Samuel, we read David’s story. Thought greatly blessed by God, David also fell into grievous sin. He quickly confessed those sins, never taking God’s forgiveness lightly. Even as he experienced the consequences of his sin, David never lost his belief in God’s love and faithfulness. 2 Samuel 22, David writes, The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, my God, my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold and my refuge, my savior…. And in Psalm 91:4, He will cover you with his pinions, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness is a shield and buckler.
the steadfast love of god never ceases
God is trustworthy. He is faithful. He is working on your behalf in every situation you face. You never have to deal with anything in this life alone. God will be with you, always. The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. (Lamentations 3:22-23)